Everything is so stressful...
Uni work is hard and there's so much to do that I don't know where to start so I don't start it at all.
Cheerleading is going terribly and we have a comp next weekend and the weekend after that.
I can't see my boyfriend for Valentines day (even though neither of us really care about it) as I have cheer practice tomorrow night, and a lecture on Wednesday at 9am so I can't get there and back in time.
I haven't seen my family in months and will miss my Dads and sisters birthdays in April because of cheerleading.
I can't start any meds until at least March because of cheerleading and exams.
I got bumped down the counselling waiting list because I didn't get the email with my appointment in.
My laptop died just after Christmas and wiped my hard drive so I can't update the website I built for our cheerleading squad or update my iPod with the 6 CDs, including running tracks, that I've bought since then.
All I can think about is food.
I keep bingeing randomly but because I can't purge I'm gaining weight.
I see nothing good in myself and just want to curl up and cry all the time
And to top it of... I'm still fucking fat.
God I hate life.