Old Thinspo II

I just want to be this girl. 

More coming soon.

Old thinspo I

(Yes this is the picture in my avatar. No it's not me!)

From various sources, Lookbook, PrettyThin (if you're on there, leave a comment with your name - though I think most of the bloggers I have subbed to came from there), random google searches... Some are repeats, I know, but they're pretty! I still have another 30 images in the folder I rescued so I'll do another one or two of these.

Oh fuck.

Said I want to do swimming when I go back to uni on fb.

Now I have like three people who want to join me.

Meaning they will see me in a swimming costume.

Fuuuuuuuuck.

Rescued some old pictures...

January 2010

February 2010

March 2010

 April 2010

 May 2010

June 2010

And then I stopped taking pictures... Worth noting that in June 2010, my friend died and I went through my first break up... result = 10lbs weight loss in 5 days. Unfortunately that lasted about a week.

I dunno what the point of this post is. All I know is Andy's gone, I move into a house on my own in a day and a half and my new flatmates don't speak English. I keep thinking that I have no friends at uni (which is a lie, as I *do*) and I'm going to fail. I want a hug.

No internet from Monday to Friday... Though I will try to write a thinspo post to schedule to automatically post on Thursday if I can before I go. Found my old thinspo folder!

Monday Monday...

On Monday I (hopefully) move into my new house and go back to uni... Diet and exercise regime starts. My plan is:

Monday
Morning swim 1 hr
Lectures 2 hrs
Gymnastics 2 hrs

Tuesday
Morning swim 1 hr
Lectures 3hrs
Gym 2 hrs


Wednesday
Lectures 2 hrs
Afternoon swim 1 hr
Cheerleading 2 hrs

Thursday
Lectures all day (bleurgh!)
Gymnastics 2 hrs

Friday
Morning swim 1 hr
Gym 2 hrs


Saturday
Afternoon swim 2 hrs

Sunday
Cheerleading 3 hrs
Swimming 2 hrs

Gym is italicised because I'm not certain I'm going to join the gym, if I can afford it etc.

Food plan is, to begin with, following the amounts suggested by http://www.freedieting.com/tools/calorie_calculator.htm for each week. Lots of fresh veg, grilled chicken, water! Going to drink at least 1.5l of water a day. No arguments. Only tea is included (but not officially counted) as well as water. I have a nice new water bottle that I want to fill every morning (it's only 500ml) and drink in lectures, then refill when I get home (obviously on Thursdays I'll just take a massive bottle in the first place!).

No idea what my start weight is... Small problem as I need it for the calculator. But I'm too scared to weigh myself :( I've definitely gained as I only have one pair of jeans left that fit me. Fucking fat fuck. Also too scared to try on my cheerleading uniform which I *have* to wear three times next week.

On the one hand I'm excited to go back and control my life, get back into exercise and cheerleading/gymnastics especially! But on the other it means leaving my BF and only seeing him once/twice a month - from seeing him every day as we live together currently. I plan on having mini goal weights that coincide with seeing him and we'll see if he notices :p I know when he goes back he wants to be healthier and lose some weight too so it'll be good to see the differences in us.